Distracted

Sometimes I am just cruising along in my day, week, month, life and things are just going great- and then something hits me and pushes me off course. This can be a small, inaignificant thing, or a large, life changing thing.

The last couple days I have been hit over and over by the small distractions. Nothing big really- emotions, questions, pain, and anger.

 I was super emotional yesterday and then I felt like God was talking to me about something that could force  changes in my life. Distraction #1. I am enjoying life as it is right now, cruising along nicely- what if He wants me to change things?

Then this morning we had a wee accident resulting in the farewell of one of our new kittens. Distraction #2. Feeling sad for my child whose little heart is grasping for the first time what death really is. It was quite sad but also a good time to teach the kids several things about pain and suffering.  And then I go to pre-school where I know one of the moms is marking the one year anniversary of her tiny sons death. The emotions in my heart for my child loosing their kitten can not compare to what this woman has had to go through. And so my heart aches and grieves for both of their losses- my childrens and hers. I wonder what if it had been my child and not just our kitty?

On a whim husband and I were thinking of doing something crazy and spontaneous, which required me to do lots of research, phoning and figuring. Distraction #3. I was busy, not focusing on the kids, grouchy at them for getting in the way of my 'important work.' I totally was grumpy at them, and my yelling did damage to their little hearts that I can not see. I can not take back this morning, and in the end it didn't even matter- we are not doing our spontaneous thing anyways. Waste of time, wasted morning with my kids.

And finally, Distraction #4. I am sitting here at my computer rather that doing the housework that I know I need to do. I have a craft room that doubles as our guest room that needs to be clean because we have company coming! Yet, here I am distracted by the opportunity to vent about my day. Sigh.



I can so easily get off course.

Sometimes I suppose it's a good thing. If God is indeed trying to distract me from my day to day grind and wanting to lead me in another direction then I guess that's good, if I pay attention.

But if I am doing what God wants me to and I get distracted by something more sparkly and attractive, then that's bad. I should ignore said attractive thing, and get my focus back on His path.

The question in my mind today is how do I know the difference? Am I confusing the sparkly thing, thinking it is what God wants? Am I allowing my days to be filled with 'good' distractions that are not really Him trying to get my attention, but rather clever schemes of the evil one to keep me from doing the good I know I should do.

It comes back to starting each day at His feet. And ending the day there too. I may get distracted throughout my day, but if I start and end each day in the arms of the One who made me I won't ever get too far off course.