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The day after returning from somewhere, a holiday of any type, is always overwhelming to me.

There is too much to do!! I had shut my mind off while I was gone, so I had not thought about the coming week at all- the meals, the chores, the schooling.

So when I returned home lastnight, I was overwhelmed- everything hit me at once.  There is laundry, meals to make, kids to reign back in from 'holiday mode' and 'holiday attitude', I have a project list longer than you can imagine. I have thoughts in my head I want to figure out. I have gardening to do.
Side note : My garden froze while I was gone. My beautiful rainbow tomato plant is no longer... sigh


I have a hard time balancing these things that need to be done, with the schooling that should be done, and with the boys that need to be loved.

And then it comes...

the thoughts about slowing down- "life is not an emergency."


My oldest turns 6 in a couple months. And  I lastnight as I was 'sleeping' I was flooded with images of him recently.

Playing chess. Checkers. Crib. Strategy games...

Riding a bike without training wheels.

Drawing.

Making and writing on cards for people.

Dictating amazing stories to me.

Praying.

Telling time.

Reading.

"making the pictures in my head" as I read to him.


These images are evidence that my boy is growing up. It happened slowly, and rapidly at the same time...  but now I see him so mature and capable. I am so proud of him. I do not know where the days and years went. I have been so 'busy'.

I need to spend more time worrying about enjoying my boys, and teaching the things that matter. And less time allowing things like laundry, meals, and projects to overwhelm me.


Well- I sat down feeling like I had nothing to say and it turns out that perhaps God has something to say to me. I do not have to have all the laundry done today, I do not have to have the house totally put back together today. I do no not have to make all those phone calls or bake the bread today. I need to enjoy the gifts He has given me.








I am still thinking about the no-new clothing challenge. I haven't made a decision. I am still convicted and know that there will be something coming out of this. Just not sure what it looks like yet.